Secret Desires - Part I

It was cheating in all possible realms of society and I had no logical reasons for it. Especially now after 13 years of marriage and one lovely kid, I never thought I would ever fall in such a relationship. I wanted to get out of it everyday since it started and the more I tried the more I was falling for the guy.

He was nothing extra ordinary or someone better than my husband but the relationship which started as mere friendship took a huge step forward and we had admitted our love for each other. LOVE,LOVE,I dont know but there is something between us.

I knew him for almost 15 years now, but there were no butterflies all this time. I was loud, he was shy. I was practical, he was emotional. I was blunt,he was diplomatic. So in all possible ways, we were different. He is married for more years than I am and he also has a 8 years son.

Few years back when I chatted with him casually, he told me about his feelings for me. And that time, I had all possible reasons to accept his love. I was 3-4 years in my marriage, I was frustrated with married life. I expected completely different things from life and the post marital life had given me something else. I felt trapped in a binding relationship named marriage. I  didnt have kids and I was financially independent.

At that time, I was vulnerable, I could have easily given to the temptation of getting his emotional support to pull back my life. But my conscience didnt agree to it and I decided to not fall prey to my vulnerability. I tried to convince him that what he expects is totally unaccepted and we should not ruin our friendship because of silly things. When he didnt seem to understand, I distanced myself from him and was not in touch with him for many years.

Meanwhile, my married life settled, we had a beautiful daughter. She filled my life with happiness and I started taking life more positively. I had become the usual sunshine I was in my college days. And my life started revolving around my kids and house. The usual petty things did not lead to fights anymore in our marriage and we had reached an equilibrium in life. I had started looking at the silver lining and the grey cloud also seemed colourful now.

But destiny had something else in store for me. I would have been spared of alot of complications in my life, if that night we would have not chatted ....